What is the Answer? (repost

What is The Answer
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What is the Answer?

Ruminating in my imperfections, I sat
Vowing not to make the SAME mistakes . . .  again!
“How could I waste such time?”  I thought
Yet here I am, alone with God, crying out to Him!

 
Those harmful, risky patterns – of doing what “I want,”
Will they never cease to taunt me?
Like an ugly reflection in darkness of soul
Will they always come to haunt me?

And yet I see, it’s not enough to let
Passing time to be the process by which I heal
Forgiving myself, and others as well
Brings me a light – an outlook new – re-energizing zeal!

 
Unworthiness, and “should haves,” does bog my ailing soul.
My mind a willing actor . . .
Takes my thought life hostage; seizing up control
Must that always be a factor?

 
Feelings are hard to ignore, it’s true
There is a time for grieving; then it should cease
Contrition will grow assurance within
I’ll act from Love – not failures past – my fears I can release.

Wallowing in this self-pity, reminds me of my lack.
It’s only God who keeps me.
Oh, my failure to see HIM – embrace who HE is
It’s all about HIS mercy. . .

“Destructive patterns, be gone!” I say
What someone has done, I must let pass
I own the blame for my own response
I learned for sure – what I shouldn’t want –
What I should desire, will last!

Nancy Kehr 08/30/11

 
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Swinging Contest (Repost)

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We hadn’t seen our  granddaughter, Hannah, for quite some time when she came for a visit

How she has grown!  Unbelievable!  She  was quickly changing into such a sweet young lady.  She is taller than me ( which isn’t saying much) and I’m 5’3.”  I had to find out what she’d been up to and what was new!  Now we had time to spend together and I wasn’t going to waste a minute.

Shopping was on the agenda, of course, but this time, instead of toys she wanted to look for some sandals with heels!  She found the perfect ones, all decorated with bling! Wow! She looks so much older! What happened to my baby?

On her first night with us,  Randy and I took Hannah  on our evening walk.   During the 1.5 mile trek on the local levee, two two HUGE white owls graced the air, along with along with cranes and hawks  A group of sheep gathered peacefully at the river’s edge.  In the distance Coyotes howled.   

Tonight, the park beckoned.  Randy had the idea to teach Hannah to ride the electric scooter.  I never laughed so hard in my life.   There was a balance issue he hadn’t counted on.  Evidentally, Hannah had none! Since that was a lost cause, we ran to the swings.

The evening ended with a swinging contest – to see who could pump the highest and maintain the longest!

Us old folks did pretty well!  Hannah asked why she went faster and I replied that we were heavier!  Indeed!

We didn’t tire easily because we have been building up stamina by walking the levee every evening.

It was a great feeling to realize the incredible adaptability build into our bodies by our Creator.  If only we’ll tap into the potential!

I pondered  tapping spiritual potential.  There is so much more for us  in God that we CAN know.    Now, if we will only swing in His direction a little more often and spend a little time in His company.  Revelation knowledge comes with His presence.

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A Marriage NOT Made in Heaven (Repost)

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A Marriage NOT Made in Heaven . . .or on Earth, Either


I wasn’t ready for what I read as I scanned her e-mail message.  Even after I finished, I could hardly believe it!
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The husband of an acquaintance of mine had retired after a very long, laborious career at a petroleum facility. Last time I saw him, he looked like he had taken quite a beating over the years.  Since the two of them had done a fair amount of RV travel, I made a little comment about it when I dropped her a line.    What came back was biting.  I could hear loathing and bitterness!  They might be married, but there was no marriage.

“Yes, he HAS retired and I am very upset that he has done this.  He is too young to retire yet!  (63)  I’ve been asked by so many people why he retired.  He should be working until at least 65-66 years old.  I don’t understand why he was in such a hurry.  With this economy as bad as it is, was not a good time to retire.

What made me even more furious about it, was that he never even discussed retirement with me at all.  He just went into the office and told the company he was retiring and started the paperwork.  Now, is NOT the time to retire with the price of gas is going sky high, and cost of living as high as it is.  It was just ridiculous to even consider retirement.

I resent him doing this!  Now my future is unsettled!  I fear that there won’t ever be the money to do the traveling I had hoped, or for the care that my cats will need.  I hate him for doing this!

I hope he gets bored to death now, because we will not be able to afford to do anything!  There will NOT be any traveling for this year and possibly into the next few years, not with the price of gas!

Whew! I had to sit for a minute in order to absorb all that spewing hatred.  A few other words expressed how she wouldn’t even miss him if he died.  I think she meant it.

Pretty harsh, I’d say.

Here is a woman who has been able to stay home and do whatever she pleased her whole life.  She has not worked, and has no children. Spin cycle and swimming classes, along with her 20-some cats, fill her days at the moment. Her love of online shopping brings many spendy purchases to her door.

Her vet bills alone, probably drove her husband nuts.  Two cats went through extended chemo.  Other feline friends had conditions for which medical treatment costs equaled that of a human.

Still blinking in disbelief, I thought over our brief written communications of the past two years.  I couldn’t recall even one time where she considered him – – for anything.  Not much thought had been given to her husband’s desires at all.  It appears that he was “just a paycheck.” 

I’m thinking maybe, just maybe, he got that message and decided to do something for HIMSELF before HE ran out of time.  Perhaps he felt that he’d been the punching boy for too long and this was the only way he could “punch back”.  Of course, I don’t really know.  Perhaps, since through the years, she’s done what she wanted without discussion, he didn’t feel any obligation to communicate.  How sad.

During my own times of tough challenges, Peace helped both my husband and I to be proactive, not reactive.  It provided insight where we had no clue. When the unanticipated shook us at our core, we had The Rock to steady us.

I hurt for people like my acquaintance. She has no clue that she is blind, wretched and miserable.  She has no foundation and no Peace; the one relationship (her marriage) that should have given her stability, is excruciatingly splintered.

With a sister as an only friend, my acquaintance has allowed selfishness to push everyone else away.  She expressed this dilemma to me, but my suggestions about getting involved with community, volunteering, or church fell on deaf ears, accompanied only by sarcasm.

I’m out of words.  Zero.  Nothing for her. 

There is no way I can commiserate, and I cannot offer condolences! I have no idea how to connect.

So I’ll say nothing – – –

Nothing, at least, until the Holy Spirit releases me and gives me the words. It is going to have to be HIM, because I know I have nothing to offer. 

On Christ the Solid Rock I Stand.

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With You In Mind

You are On HIS Mind
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With You In Mind
On eagle’s wings, You WILL rise
God’s glory overflows
Your heart and mind be lifted high
With the LOVE His peace bestows
* * *  
We cannot know, what lies ahead
For family or for friends
But God is in control, you see
His Mercy know no ends.
* * * 
So take with you His sword and shield
He’s given You victory
But guard your heart, secure your mind
His blessings you will see!

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While I Slept I Had a Dream (Repost)


While I Slept  I Had a Dream
While I slept  I had a dream
I saw your face so clear
We were in a courtroom,
A verdict drawing near.
As I watched, you were in shock
The judge about to rule
Your cries and pleadings were ignored
I thought it was so cruel.
The judge spoke out, “You had a chance
To set the world aside,
Now the world condemns you
With it’s arrogance and pride.”
Then slowly rose your Counselor
He said, “I’ll take her place,”
“My life for hers, if she’ll consent,”
“Release her by My Grace!”
 
The judge considered long and hard
And then his gavel struck
“Done”, He said. “Take him away”
You could not believe your luck.
It wasn’t “luck,” I’ll tell you
LOVE-in-action brought
Freedom with it’s Mercy,
And your Salvation bought!
 Now you’re free, what will you do?
New life has come to stay,
Others need to hear there’s hope
Now, you show them The Way!
by Nancy Kehr  

 

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While I slept  I had a dream

I saw your face so clear

We were in a courtroom,

A verdict drawing near.

As I watched, you were in shock

The judge about to rule

Your cries and pleadings were ignored

I thought it was so cruel.

The judge spoke out, “You had a chance

To set the world aside,

Now the world condemns you

With it’s arrogance and pride.”

Then slowly rose your Counselor

He said, “I’ll take her place,”

“My life for hers, if she’ll consent,”

“Release her by My Grace!”

The judge considered long and hard

And then his gavel struck

“Done”, He said. “Take him away”

You could not believe your luck.

It wasn’t “luck,” I’ll tell you

LOVE-in-action brought

Freedom with it’s Mercy,

And your Salvation bought!

Now you’re free, what will you do?

New life has come to stay,

Others need to hear there’s hope

Now, you show them The Way!

Nancy Kehr  12/08/11

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