|What is The Answer
What is the Answer?
Ruminating in my imperfections, I sat
Vowing not to make the SAME mistakes . . . again!
“How could I waste such time?” I thought
Yet here I am, alone with God, crying out to Him!
Those harmful, risky patterns – of doing what “I want,”
Will they never cease to taunt me?
Like an ugly reflection in darkness of soul
Will they always come to haunt me?
And yet I see, it’s not enough to let
Passing time to be the process by which I heal
Forgiving myself, and others as well
Brings me a light – an outlook new – re-energizing zeal!
Unworthiness, and “should haves,” does bog my ailing soul.
My mind a willing actor . . .
Takes my thought life hostage; seizing up control
Must that always be a factor?
Feelings are hard to ignore, it’s true
There is a time for grieving; then it should cease
Contrition will grow assurance within
I’ll act from Love – not failures past – my fears I can release.
Wallowing in this self-pity, reminds me of my lack.
It’s only God who keeps me.
Oh, my failure to see HIM – embrace who HE is
It’s all about HIS mercy. . .
“Destructive patterns, be gone!” I say
What someone has done, I must let pass
I own the blame for my own response
I learned for sure – what I shouldn’t want –
What I should desire, will last!
Nancy Kehr 08/30/11
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Also Shared with Laura at The Wellspring